It's a Monday

This morning started out with me having that "I don't want to do anything today" kind of feeling. I did not want to get out of bed. I did not want to have to think about getting breakfast ready or entertaining a two year old. It was a brief moment of "What was I thinking staying at home full time".

I occasionally have these moments and they quickly pass. That's me though, I tend to question things, I am kind of an analyzer. Drives my husband crazy. I also accept change slowly, very slowly. I love this change in my life, but it is change.   While I was trying to wake myself up this morning and feeling cranky, I know without a doubt that I would have the exact same thoughts if I had to get up and leave the house to go to work. I also feel incredibly relieved to know I do not have a maternity leave end date looming. I have always had days when I felt like all I wanted to do was nothing - literally nothing. The difference is when I was working, once I got to work and talking with my co-workers, the crankiness would disappear. Today, it had to be more self motivated to get myself out of my funk. It was actually days like this that always before made me a little afraid of staying home full time. But this feeling of "ugh" quickly vanished once the kids were awake and ready for the day. Baby Girl has such a strong personality and she wakes up full of life. It is such a blessing! Although it was a toast and fruit breakfast day, playing with puzzles and watching Sofia while I nursed made for a pretty fun morning.

Little Man has been a little fussier while eating, but not too bad. He might have picked up on some of my crankiness.  He is starting to stay awake longer and he tries to bat at toys hanging above him. He is such a social baby and loves the one on one interaction - it is so much fun. We are still working on reducing the fussiness during feeds, but when he is calm and relaxed, it is the sweetest thing ever. Baby Girl has had her own rough day though. She had a meltdown after lunch that I am still unsure of the reason. She also woke up screaming from her nap early. I was able to settle her down and get her to go back to sleep, but I can only assume a bad dream.

So this Monday that started out blah has turned out to be a really great day. I got invited to lunch for later this week to celebrate my birthday with some great friends. I love, love, love going out to lunch through the week. It is one of the most relaxing things I can do so I am really looking forward to it. The kiddos will be up soon and Baby Girl will help me cook dinner. Tonight's menu, pork chops, brussel sprouts and maybe potatoes. And that is just one reason why I am so thankful to be staying home.....cooking dinner for my family and ending the day with little stress (and crankiness :) ).